Daily Meditation for Friday, Dec 11, 2009
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A person should be kind to a fainting (weak, depressed, discouraged, angry) friend. But you are my friend and you accuse (judge) me...
Job 6:14 New Life Recovery Bible)
When we go through the recovery process we re-examine ourselves and out beliefs. It is a long process of analysizing and forcing ourselves to face questions. Sometimes these questions are very hard and we don't want to face the question or the answer. Many times our belief in God is challenged and we lose hope. It is possible that our relationship with God will deepen and strengthen in the recovery process. But it is also possible that we will want to withdraw from God. Maybe we will feel angry with God, or afraid of God, or unable to believe in God at all. This can be a difficult experience.
During this experience we need our friends to accept us even if we turn away from God. We need our friends to recognize our struggle and not minimize our feelings. We need people who will not be shocked when we are expressing full of rage at God. We need friends to see our deep pain behind our words and know this is part of our healing process. We need people to see our pain and not judge us. We need our friends to love us and care about us even when we turn our back on God. We need friends who understand, who are committed to loving us and quietly praying for us.
Sometimes I feel agnostic (unbelief), God,
I just don't know anything anymore.
Sometimes I want nothing to do with you.
Where were you when I needed you the most?
Sometimes I discouragement and depression, Lord.
Sometimes I can't seem to have hope.
I need friends who will not abandon me, Lord.
I need friends who will be patient and show mercy to me with my anger and fear.
I need friends who will stay with me as I go through my grief, anger and fear and learn to trust you again.
God, I need friends who will give me courage to hope and believe in you again.
God, please send help to me. Amen.
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